Who Am I now?

Several times in the day I ask myself “Who am I now?” When I am talking to my wife, I am a husband and when I am talking to my children, I am a father. When I am shouting, I am an angry man. When I am helping people, I am a compassionate person. The answer to “Who am I now?” keeps on changing.

All the above answers are merely labels put on myself. But who am I really?

Keeping aside all these labels, I experience my non judgemental real self.

The sky carries all the clouds but still the sky is unattached to them. The sky gives space to the clouds to move and vanish but the sky remains unharmed. The sky is home to the clouds but the sky is never influenced by the clouds. In the same way these labels appear and disappear in my thoughts but I remain unchanged. I am giving power to these thoughts but I am always separate from them.

Sometimes when I am feeling hot and I ask myself, “Who am I now?” I get a reply, “I am irritated.” I breathe in thought the nose and breathe out slowly through the mouth or nose 2–3 times and then I ask myself, “What do I want to be now?” I get answers like I want to be calm, happy, kind, etc. I take a few more breaths and feel that I am the unattached sky carrying all the thoughts. I am always calm and happy. This helps me come back to my actual peaceful and happy state. These thoughts just deviate me from my true state which is full of love, peace and calmness.

This question, “Who am I now?” is a big pointer for getting me connected to the inner real self. The inner self is the source of all emotions, actions, and thoughts. The moment I get connected inside every emotion, action, and thought comes into my control. Although I am not attached to any emotion, action, or thought, I have the power to direct every emotion, action, and thought.

I am the source of the present moment.